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Anyways
02:54
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A candle a blanket
A new way to make an old dish a favorite
A meal fit for his kingdom
My stomach is fiending so loudly
My demons are begging for seconds
I tend to overfeed them
They probably don’t even want
what I’ve been looking for anyways
Another round of back and forth
a tablespoon of salt anyways
A landslide a close race
A new way to save face, a miscalculation
Informal resignation
Opinions on linens
Nomadic depictions, the candle still flickers
The hand still feeds us poison
Says, “I better not regret the times
I’ve brought you back to life anyways”
That “the problem we’re addressing here
is a lack of moral judgment anyways”
I thought that we could talk it out
I thought that we could talk
I thought that we could talk about anything else
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2. |
Leave Them Standing
04:21
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It comes
The feeling comes around again
No point in explaining
It’s already been done
There it goes
Everything that we had planned
The conversation, the exit and the end
Well I’ll be damned if I walk that line again
I wasn’t scared, it’s just not my kind of audience
From all the applause, you’d think that I’d killed a man
It won’t be long ‘til they recognize my good intent
I’ve done what I can
I’ll leave them standing
It comes
The feeling comes around again
The calm before the show
The peak before the low
There you go
Always spinning round my head
Took a pill for the migraine then I got back in bed
Well I’ll be damned if I walk that line again
I wasn’t scared, it’s just not my kind of audience
From all the applause, you’d think that I’d killed a man
It won’t be long ‘til they see what’s wrong with me
I’ve done what I can
I’ll leave them standing
Well I’ll be damned if I walk that line again
I understand it’s only natural
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3. |
Crystal
04:08
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Always picking the right words for the wrong times
A script that you had learned to memorize
A calculated gesture gone awry
Break ‘em up into pieces
They don’t relate to you or fight with you
Or try to drink your time
They’re hanging off your mind just hoping to
Come out right
Blow them away again
Come the light
Blow it away again
Never wanted to stay there very long
Take another year to get it right
Still hanging off my mind, still hoping to
Come out right
Play it out to the end
Come the light
Blow it away again
So when do you decide
I’m asking you when will you decide
An opportune moment passing by
You let it go down
I think I know why
It sounds like a poor excuse,
but it’s you I choose.
Again it’s you. it's always you.
Come out right
Throw them away again
Come the light
Throw it away again
When do you decide
I’m asking you when will you decide
An opportune moment passing b
You let it go down
I think I know why
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4. |
Lavender Cane
03:11
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I drag my knuckles through the blood red dirt for you
I pull my shirt over my shoulders just for you
Am I not coming through?
I won’t look twice if it’s empower lavender cane
If I heard you right they spread their ashes all over the place
I drugged the landlord’s dog with a tab of Xan
I lugged your suitcase up a dozen flights of stairs
Do you even care?
I won’t look twice if it’s an hour back on my plate
If I heard you right they spread their ashes all over the place
If I heard you right, I’m wrong
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5. |
Nerves
01:41
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Manifest changing up the script
Just to make it fit
I don’t think you’re gonna
I don’t think you wanna
Learn the lines with an understudy’s eyes
A compromise, or you could keep it simple
Meet me in the middle
Where you go with your former life in tow
Iodine in your throat
Chewing on a piece of rope
Tied up in your hope
Having come so close
Snuff it and rekindle
Meet back in the middle
Should the sun forget to shine
I’ll be there before you rise
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6. |
High on Yourself
03:57
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You know that I’m no good at talking on the phone when I need you here. I understand how that might sound shallow but I need you here.
I understand that you have your doubts because you’re a talker, and I could try harder but you’re always catching me off my guard. I’m not sure what I’m missing.
Our best times together are when you’re self-assured, when you’re high on yourself
and I can just take you in.
You don’t even need me here, but you want me when you’re high.
When I was young I was always with good things. I can’t believe that our love isn’t working.
All I need now is to take it in. I don’t need to have a voice anymore. I was young. I was always with good things
I don’t have much to offer, but when you’re self-assured, when you’re high on yourself.
You don’t even need me, but when you want me you can take it all.
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7. |
No Reassurance
03:47
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I am sorry, don't want to bring you pain,
but everything is strained. Everything keeps getting in the way.
I'll try calling when I'm feeling down so you can haul me out. Sadness is just how we relate when everything keeps getting in the way.
We never had a plan.
No, we never had a plan at all.
I know you're looking for something to come out.
I've got no reassurance for you now.
Blurry photos, pixelated dreams, makes me feel like we live our life inside a painting.
Did you notice, your head buried in me? The walls were closing. We gave the world permission to shrink.
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8. |
Designated Driver
03:58
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A dozen lips smacking next to me
Cherry picking at every opportunity
I’m so tired of being the designated driver
I used to like it, but
I wanna stay home again
I just want to crawl back into bed
I don’t wanna be your saddest friend,
But I wanted to stay home again
Another trip to the bathroom sink
Another hit just to fake happy
I’m so tired of being the one to hold your hands back
Put it on my tab
I wanted to stay home again
I just want to crawl back into bed
I don’t wanna be your saddest friend,
But I wanted to stay home again
When it’s time to go,
When you’re the first one home,
You can blame it all on me
You’re not the empath you once claimed to be
I wanna stay home again
I just want to crawl back into bed
I don’t wanna be your saddest friend,
But I wanted to stay home again
I thought you’d understand that
I want to stay home again
I just want to crawl back into bed
We both know how this is bound to end,
I just wanted to stay home again
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9. |
Shots of Gold
04:23
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Picture you,
Pre-violence
Force yourself to remember it
2002
Snow shovel
Resting on your shoulder
Picture you
Ice splinters
Fractals on the water
Calling you,
“Come nearer”
Force yourself, force your way in
You’re not the first to look this way
Close your eyes while the world immerses you
With so much to see, not much to say
Having witnessed, do you still want the truth?
I’d give it to you,
but I don’t have an answer for you.
I didn’t move
I didn’t panic
Smooth like a stone in my hand
Like the moment
The music ends
We fade back into silence
Every disappointment you’ve ever known
Every shot you just couldn’t leave alone
Every single moment, made it your own
Taking shots of gold
You’re not the first to look this way
Close your eyes while the world immerses you
With so much to see, not much to say
Having witnessed, do you still want the truth?
I’d give it to you,
but I don’t have a reason
I don’t have a cushion
I don’t have an answer for you
I don’t think that I could leave it alone
Every hint of progress ever shown
Every disappointment you’ve ever known
Taking shots of gold
I don’t have a reason
I don’t have a cushion
I don’t have an answer for you
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10. |
Education on Earth
03:43
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I always thought I had good sense
But I stuck my hand in the gears
We fought so long to break cycles
What came next wasn’t clear
We were looking for an audience
Now I don’t know what that’s worth
Maybe it’s time that I started
My education on Earth
If you’ve got no plan you’ve got nothing
Like I thought you’d say
How to get your mind off everything
Doesn’t help at all
Show me how my logic is weak
Such an intellectual
And if I even learned anything
It’s how to be small
Stuttering through your good morning
“Are you an anxious person?”
You use an awful lot of words
A simple yes would have served
Silver maples are common
Chestnuts are endangered
Maybe it’s time that I started
My education on earth
Feels like I’ve been in deep space
Fix my mind on the salt-stained sidewalk
On the ice-crested rooftops
There isn’t anything—
That is, no one left waiting,
No one waiting on my call.
Maybe it’s time to start.
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